I usually try not to get too personal on my blog or on social media and try to keep things as private as I can. That hasn't always worked out well because as we all know, people talk and gossip spreads like wildfire. So sometimes being able to keep private things private has been out of my control. But my new album is a lot about what has gone on in my personal and professional life since moving to Nashville 3 1/2 years ago and I wanted to share that. I'm thrilled that this new chapter has finally begun and I'm so proud of my new music. It's been a bumpy journey to get here, but an interesting one for sure. This album chronicles that. These songs aren't ideas I pulled out of thin air or wrote just for the hell of it. They are significant and they mean something. They really happened. They're true stories. In some cases I HAD to write them because it was the only thing way to comfort myself through tough a moment. There is one song I literally wrote WHILE crying. If the songs are a victory then the battle was hard won. A lot of stuff had to happen in order for the songs on this album to be written and recorded. I had to cry. A lot. I had to lose relationships. Be criticized. Be judged. Make huge mistakes. Get really angry. Feel hopeless. Feel humiliated. Feel like it was all over. Punish myself. Forgive myself. Let go. Leave Philadelphia. Move to Nashville. Start over. Feel hope. Have faith. Have ambition. Work really hard. Be persistent. Fail. Learn some hard lessons. Persevere. Get better. Get smarter. Get wiser. Get fed up. Feel scared for my life. Feel unappreciated. Feel adored. Feel hate. Feel love. Feel overwhelmed. Feel in control. Feel damaged. Feel healed. Feel regretful. Feel grateful. Feel weak. Feel like superwoman. Feel unimaginable pain. Feel so happy I couldn't wait to get up in the morning. I had to fall down and get up. Fall down again and get up again. And again. And through it all, through getting pulled back and forth between all this good and bad, I had to decide to keep moving. I still have to make that decision everyday. To keep going. To keep fighting. That's what this album is about. The constant tug of war of life. Still fighting. Never giving up.
And living to write a song about it.
(P.S. If you wanna hear what these songs are all about, pre-order Tug Of War and receive 3 free song downloads: http://www.blueelan.com/gina-sicilia-store/)